Today has been a good day.
It was the day before the last and omg was it fun.
I say fun, but something scared me.
I think my friend has an eating disorder. She hasn't eaten in days and said it is because someone called her fat. I am worried for her. Both me and this lad in my year have been speaking about it together, because she has told us both. But I don't know what to do, ah.
Secondly, she saw her boyfriend hug another girl in our year, personally I think she over reacted. But anyway, I was stood next to her and she started to pound the wall with her fist. It went bright red, and we went back to class. The next thing I know she is off again and I stayed in class. She came in, he fists were scratched and bleeding, skin was tearing of. I was stunned. So I messaged this lad and was like 'have you seen___ fists?' and he was like yeah and we spoke to her about it. But she just shook us of.
Anyway, thanks :) x
Thursday, 16 July 2015
Wednesday, 15 July 2015
Day 1.
Well, I'd be lying if I said these past few weeks had been easy, but somehow I've managed to pull through and deal with it. It has definitely been eventful, there is no denying that, ha. I've got 2 days left of year 10. How scary. Then in my final year of secondary, then moving to college, then uni, then getting a job:) It sounds so mad, but so exciting at the same time. :) I feel as if this last year of secondary needs to be made the most of. Instead of all of the things that has happened this year, I want to put it all behind me and start over.
1- I think this has been my main struggle over the past few weeks, and has affected me the most. Me and my maths teacher had a little fall out. I say little, but it upset us both and made us both think about everything. This all happened because I had the mark scheme to one of the papers, it wasn't intentional, but I still had it. So, it all got out that I had 'cheated' on my maths paper, by gosh it did some damage. I blamed my teacher for everything that had happened, and it had all kicked off. I walked into maths and handed my teacher a piece of paper because I had been put on report. As I handed her this sheet of paper, she asked me whether I was okay, twice and I ignored her. She was fine for a while, then walked out of class. So, head of maths came and got me out of class and told me to enter this room, I could see my maths teacher in it and started to shake. I said 'no,no, I cant, I don't want to go in' and head of maths was like, 'it is fine, please?' so I walked in. I looked over at my maths teacher and she had a tear streak down her face. I instantly knew I had done something, and wanted to just break down. So, head of maths said '___, What has happened? You used to think she was the best teacher in the world and now you are suddenly ignoring her, she doesn't know what she has done wrong, but she is upset.' My heart stopped and I couldn't say anything, I mean what could I say? I knew what I wanted to, but couldn't word it. So, my maths teacher walked out of this room to check back in on the class and the head of maths said 'So, whats happened?' I turned and said 'I feel she is disappointed with me' This took a lot for me to say. I feel I can talk to my maths teacher about anything and everything, she is only young herself so I feel she gets me. I continued on to say 'I used to be able to talk to her about everything, now I feel I don't' I don't know why I felt like that, because I felt like that before this whole maths paper thing. Anyway she walked back in and the head of maths said 'She thinks you are disappointed in her and feels like she can't talk to you anymore' So we talked and yeah. At the end of the lesson she told me to stay behind and told me if there was anything else I wanted to tell her. But I just repeated everything really and then she told me I had upset her. I felt so bad, I knew I had by the look on her face. I hate that I did that, because she was my favourite teacher. Anyway, this has all been resolved now and my maths lessons are fab. Like today we did about financing and salary, which is what they should teach you in school.
2- I've fell out with my friend because I was talking to this lad, he asked me out I said I wanted to wait a bit then the next day he asked my friend out and she said yes, even though she knew I liked him.
3-I think one of my other friends has an eating disorder because she told be she is starving herself because someone called her fat. And shes told me she has been sick a couple of times, but didn't mention she is doing it deliberately, which I think she is.
So ya, what an eventful life. And this all happened in a week and half and there is loads moree....
Anyway, see yaaa
1- I think this has been my main struggle over the past few weeks, and has affected me the most. Me and my maths teacher had a little fall out. I say little, but it upset us both and made us both think about everything. This all happened because I had the mark scheme to one of the papers, it wasn't intentional, but I still had it. So, it all got out that I had 'cheated' on my maths paper, by gosh it did some damage. I blamed my teacher for everything that had happened, and it had all kicked off. I walked into maths and handed my teacher a piece of paper because I had been put on report. As I handed her this sheet of paper, she asked me whether I was okay, twice and I ignored her. She was fine for a while, then walked out of class. So, head of maths came and got me out of class and told me to enter this room, I could see my maths teacher in it and started to shake. I said 'no,no, I cant, I don't want to go in' and head of maths was like, 'it is fine, please?' so I walked in. I looked over at my maths teacher and she had a tear streak down her face. I instantly knew I had done something, and wanted to just break down. So, head of maths said '___, What has happened? You used to think she was the best teacher in the world and now you are suddenly ignoring her, she doesn't know what she has done wrong, but she is upset.' My heart stopped and I couldn't say anything, I mean what could I say? I knew what I wanted to, but couldn't word it. So, my maths teacher walked out of this room to check back in on the class and the head of maths said 'So, whats happened?' I turned and said 'I feel she is disappointed with me' This took a lot for me to say. I feel I can talk to my maths teacher about anything and everything, she is only young herself so I feel she gets me. I continued on to say 'I used to be able to talk to her about everything, now I feel I don't' I don't know why I felt like that, because I felt like that before this whole maths paper thing. Anyway she walked back in and the head of maths said 'She thinks you are disappointed in her and feels like she can't talk to you anymore' So we talked and yeah. At the end of the lesson she told me to stay behind and told me if there was anything else I wanted to tell her. But I just repeated everything really and then she told me I had upset her. I felt so bad, I knew I had by the look on her face. I hate that I did that, because she was my favourite teacher. Anyway, this has all been resolved now and my maths lessons are fab. Like today we did about financing and salary, which is what they should teach you in school.
2- I've fell out with my friend because I was talking to this lad, he asked me out I said I wanted to wait a bit then the next day he asked my friend out and she said yes, even though she knew I liked him.
3-I think one of my other friends has an eating disorder because she told be she is starving herself because someone called her fat. And shes told me she has been sick a couple of times, but didn't mention she is doing it deliberately, which I think she is.
So ya, what an eventful life. And this all happened in a week and half and there is loads moree....
Anyway, see yaaa
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